Have you
experienced a death in your family? Well if you have it is very possible that
you blame yourself. You might blame yourself because you have no answers, which
can make you feel discouraged.
During his life he
spent a lot of time in his walker or sleeping. Most of the time I was at
school, but I tried to spend the most time with him as I could.
On one of the days I was home on the weekend he slept on my arm until
the point where I could not feel it anymore.
Another time was when we set off to a hotel in Lake George and went
swimming. He was wearing his blue semi-inflated floaty, and I was swimming
normally; as a joke I had him dunk me under the water. PLOOP. My head went under like a bowling ball in the
water, and his face lit up in excitement like he invented the wheel or
electricity.
On November 10,
2014 it was a cold but beautiful day. I went to school and did some math. When I finally went home, my mom picked me
up, not so enthusiastically. Her face
was as pink as a chery and blushed, but I did not think anything of it. I
nudged in, and all my saddened family was there. I parked my stuff down and
plopped down on the couch.
“Hey Bud, come
here, please." So I walked in the kitchen packed with people, and my mom
said in a confused voice, “Alex, I have some bad news, your brother just passed
away." I felt the pain of the news, and I felt it was my fault because
it was so hard to bear the loss, so I tried to blame it on myself. Then the
tears were coming to life and running down my face like Usain Bolt
running the hundred meter. I ran into my room and balled my eyes out, trying to
escape what I just heard. One reason that I blamed myself is the sadness of
losing him.
There are a couple
ways that helped me overcome blaming myself.
When I started socializing I did not think about anything. I found this
out by going and playing with my friends or playing video games; this helped me
cope with my emotions. One example is I went to the store to get some food as
one would and I saw one of my friends there. We got talking about this new game
that came out recently. It was Uncharted 4 that we both had; I had the
first canon mission done, and we rambled on until our moms said, "let’s
go, we have to shop.” That was the best
memory that I had from getting over blaming myself. From this day forward we go to the cemetery on Sundays, holidays,
and birthdays, another instance that helped me with getting over the feeling of
blaming myself because it got me a chance to "see him” again; until this
day we do it consistently.
I felt in the
beginning of the news that I was alone and I had no answers, so I blamed
myself, and that should not be the case if you're going through anything like
what I went through. There are lots of
ways to get away from blaming yourself. I learned that you should not blame
yourself about something you can not control.
-Alex
" if you're going through anything like what I went through. There are lots of ways to get away from blaming yourself. " I like this quote alot because it made me learn that you shouldnt blame yourself for things you can't control. It made me think of my pets death that made me blame myself for not taking care of her well, but she had cancer and there was nothing I could do about it.
ReplyDelete"I was alone and I had no answers, so I blamed myself." This is a very good line, because it brings the reader to your emotions. It made the reader think back all of the times he/she felt alone and blamed themselves, not just a death. You incorporated an emotion many of us have felt, and I feel that's what makes this a good story.
ReplyDelete"I ran into my room and balled my eyes out, trying to escape what I just heard." This line makes me remember my reaction of when my
ReplyDeleteparents grandma died. At first I was deeply regretting not spending more time with her and just sitting in my room alone, just crying. Personally, the best thing that helped me move on was the funeral. Somehow that funeral made something in my brain click; I believe that click was the sense of acceptance that she was gone and would never come back. That click made me realise that life moves on, and that you need to move on with it, yet never I will never forget those great times with my grandma.
I really like the way you really described that you were really sad that your brother died. "Then the tears were coming to life and running down my face like Usain Bolt running the hundred meter." I can really relate with blaming yourself for the death of another because my personal narrative is about my grandpa and how I felt really guilty after he died. I have understood that when someone close to you dies don't blame it on yourself because it's not your fault. I might of actually made there life more enjoyable in their perspective.
ReplyDeleteWhile reading the story one line stuck out ",Well if you have it is very possible that you blame yourself" I can relate to that line because every time you pet or someone in your family dies then you blame it on yourself thinking why did this happen but you get over it but never forget. I like how you kept me engaged with flashbacks and metaphors. I learned from this you have to not blame yourself for something you can't change.
ReplyDelete¨It was Uncharted 4 that we both had....¨ I like how you told me the expole of it, the specific detail of the game.
ReplyDelete"I felt the pain of the news, and I felt it was my fault because it was so hard to bear the loss, so I tried to blame it on myself." I really like this quote because it tells me specifically how you felt when you found out about the news. This really gave me a nice way to think and feel the way you were.
ReplyDeletethe way you worded your story was very good. "Then the tears were coming to life and running down my face like Usain Bolt running the hundred meter." this quote really told me how you felt and brought a lot of emotions to the story.
ReplyDelete"I learned that you should not blame yourself about something you can not control." I like how it can easily relate to the reader. I also like the descriptions when you found out, it brought a lot of emotion to the story.
ReplyDelete"When I started socializing I did not think about anything. I found this out by going and playing with my friends or playing video games; this helped me cope with my emotions." I like this sentence because it gives people who have lost a loved one ideas on how to cope. The way Alex wrote the second paragraph without telling us who it was was a good hook because you want to find out who it was. I can relate to this because I lost a dog and I learned that blaming yourself will make you feel worse than just accepting it.
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