My anxiety decides to flit around in my head
It makes my heart rate rise steadily,
My breathing shallow
Even my hands start to shake.
Thoughts aren’t stopping until they finally blank
I never knew the silence could be so suffocating.
I look up at my ceiling
chipping paint,
black smudges from long gone stick-on stars
I need to get out of here…
Bolting from my room
Down the stairs
Out the door
The night sky envelops me with gentle darkness
Crickets sing and insects hum
The humid wind tugs at my hair
My mind stays still
And for the time being
It’s peaceful
Another breeze drifts by
The scent of lilacs captures me
I walk along the road listening
To the quiet patter of my bare feet
On the once scalding asphalt
The littlest of things can take your mind off of the bad
I hear something behind me
I whirl my head around
It is just a little rabbit hopping on the grass
Trying to find its way home
Home…
I have to head back
It should be calm now
I reach the door and take in the sweet smell of summer
Back inside
Up the stairs
My room is bathed in pale moonlight
Pouring in from my windows
Silvery blue light dances around me
Pulling me down into sleep
I can feel the way my heart’s hammering
It gets to the point where I think
My heart’s going to leap
Right out of my chest
The rooms spins
Almost as if it’s laughing at me
because I can’t find my balance
The swirling ceiling and blue walls fade into black
As I shut my eyes to calm my stomach
It hurts to breathe as my body starts to convulse
I can’t seem to sit still
It’s all in your head,
there’s nothing to be afraid of…
I wring my hands together
until the shaking subsides
A small distraction to keep me from crying
I push the thoughts away
But the feeling of dread doesn’t subside
The empty silence it leaves behind
is suffocating me
I put my headphones in my ears
Hoping that the melody will calm
My ever incessant heart
Slowly,
Slowly I rock myself
And little by little my breathing evens out
My room is stuffy
Full of sticky heat that surrounds me
In that moment I make an impulse decision to leave
Leave the place that was once my sanctum
I venture out into the dark night
The soft patter of my bare feet
On the once scalding asphalt
-Katherine Majkut
I liked this poem. I particularly liked how you repeated the exact same three lines as earlier towards the end.
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I venture out into the dark night
The soft patter of my bare feet
On the once scalding asphalt
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This poem was amazing and you could feel the connection you have with the topic. The central idea was stated multiple times throughout the poem which was anxiety. The message was that you can't escape yourself so it is easier to do what makes you happy to try and cope. The speaker is trying to show us the struggle and the emotions that come with the topic. Personally I do not think that we could take the poem out of its context without losing the emotion. An awesome poem overall!
ReplyDeleteWow, this was great! I was really drawn in the moment I started reading. You could instantly see the mood of the poem starting in the first line.
ReplyDelete"My anxiety decides to flit around in my head
It makes my heart rate rise steadily,
My breathing shallow
Even my hands start to shake." I could sense the upsetting mood. You also used personification multiple times and that helped me understand how you felt about certain things. "The humid wind tugs at my hair" I really enjoyed this poem! Great work!
The central idea for this poem is anxiety. The author talks about how the silence in her room makes her feel scared. she says "I never knew the silence could be so suffocating".
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